Thoughtful Drift

Life never really goes as planned, does it? When I finally proposed to AkM today over Zoom call, it was nothing like what I had imagined. I was waiting for the perfect moment - a little music in the background, a flower in my hand, and a calm mind. But things didn’t quite work out that way. My spouse was out of the house, and AkM, who’d just spent three long days at the hospital with her son, was finally free to talk. Not exactly what you’d call perfect timing, but it felt like the right time anyway. So there we were on Zoom, and I thought, why not? I got down on one knee (yes, on a video call) and just said what I felt. No big gestures, no rehearsed speech - just whatever came from my heart, the moment, and all my emotions. It wasn’t fancy, but it was honest. You’re the first person I’ve ever proposed to by going down on one knee, and that made the moment even more special for me. Looking back, I’d thought it needed to be perfect with all the extras, but honestly, it didn’t. What matt...

As we approach another 9th, I find myself amazed at how quickly time has passed—it’s already been 10 months since I met you, sweetheart. It feels like just yesterday, and yet, in these 10 months, you’ve become such an integral part of my life. Every time this date comes around, I’m reminded of how thankful and lucky I am to have met you and to have built this beautiful connection. Month after month, our bond has only grown deeper and stronger. With you, I feel a sense of comfort and trust that I’ve rarely felt before. There’s nothing I hesitate to share with you now—whether it’s the most intimate of thoughts, fiery and exciting conversations, reflections on my private life with my spouse, or even the delicate threads of family connections. With you, every topic feels safe, every moment feels meaningful. You are a truly extraordinary person, and I feel so blessed to have you in my life. Your warmth, your understanding, and your presence make everything so much better. I hope that we con...

Trying to balance real life and this growing connection with AkM has been one of our biggest challenges. Every day, we tell ourselves to limit the time we spend talking—but somehow, the urge to connect keeps pulling us back. It’s like this ongoing tug-of-war, where every step feels necessary but also impossibly tangled in shared understanding. What truly amazes me is how AkM always finds ways to bring positivity into my life, even from afar. I wanted to do something special for my spouse, but honestly, I wouldn’t have even known where to start without her. With her brilliant ideas and that gentle, constant push, I ended up planning an evening that was so warm and memorable—massage oils, candles, an incredible outfit... the works. I think our long,  free, unrestricted, initimate discussion about our private life with our spouse was trigger of such plan. It wasn’t just about the details, though. It was the thoughtfulness behind them, her way of quietly showing how much she cares abou...

Why Our 5 a.m. Chats Matter As we approach the school holidays, it means my spouse waking up late and losing the private time I have with AkM for our 5 a.m. chats. This is the time I cherish the most, as it offers a completely distraction-free window with her. In those early hours, when the world is still asleep, our conversations feel sacred—a space where we can share our thoughts without external pressures or distractions. It’s not just about the words exchanged; it’s about the sense of connection we foster in those quiet, uninterrupted moments. This was the time we could be our most genuine selves, without judgment, and that simplicity made it incredibly special. Letting Go of the Routine I know this routine is not sustainable for the long term—it disrupts her exercise and my sleep. I have been contemplating on this for almost a month now. Still, the thought of letting go feels bittersweet. Each morning, I find myself savoring these talks more, knowing that soon, this routine will o...

Dear AkM, As the holidays approach, the usual routine goes completely out of whack. Kids are home, guests are around, and everything feels a little busier. And with that, our time to connect starts shrinking too. It’s just how this time of year goes, right? But even so, I keep coming back to one thing: us . The past week has been something special. We’ve talked about so much, opened up about things we’d usually keep tucked away—our dreams, random imaginations, even things we’d never admit out loud. And somehow, every conversation has made this connection feel even stronger. It’s like we’ve found a rhythm, one that makes me feel grateful every single day. What amazes me the most is how you make time, no matter what. Hiding under a blanket to text, sneaking in a quick message while playing with your kid, juggling work and guests and still finding moments to connect. You’ve turned busy days into beautiful ones, and it just makes me love you even more. I know things will slow down a bit fo...

AkM, thanks for your letter.. loved it. My Love, I am pretty late in sending you this one. We have been tied in soo many real life commitments. so just thought of sending you this one in middle of your mess and chaos in hopes to bring a smile and a cute dimple on that face ;) The other day my reply to your message was incomplete. I tried taking out really a good time to draft the best possible thoughts and feelings but then realised no time is enough and no words are enough to let you know what i feel..... Probably in some relations words and gratitude might just be a way to tell how you feel but it can never completely justify what i feel about this.... I know from past few days i have been talking about balancing, keeping this forever, sustainability, reduced talks and connects, stress, health impact and pata nahi kya kya... Its my mind that wants to say this to you.... its my mind that wants your well being... its my mind that wants to balance this....its my mind that is practical. ...

As we celebrate our 9th , here's the note I texted to AkM As we approach yet another month together, I couldn’t help but sit down and let my thoughts flow. You know, last time I wrote something like this, I honestly thought, “What more could I possibly say?” But here I am, realizing once again how wrong I was. We keep surprising ourselves, don’t we? This bond, this connection… it just keeps growing in ways I never imagined. These past couple of days have been a whirlwind of emotions and thoughts. Most of them I’ve already shared with you – openly, honestly, and unfiltered. But one thing keeps coming back to me - how extraordinary this relationship truly is. While scrolling today through old blog posts, it hit me – I’ve shared so much with you in such a short time. It’s almost overwhelming, in the best way possible. No one has ever come this close to knowing me, understanding me, the way you do. And it didn’t even feel forced; it just happened so naturally. You were right – the way ...