Thoughtful Drift

Life never really goes as planned, does it? When I finally proposed to AkM today over Zoom call, it was nothing like what I had imagined. I was waiting for the perfect moment - a little music in the background, a flower in my hand, and a calm mind. But things didn’t quite work out that way. My spouse was out of the house, and AkM, who’d just spent three long days at the hospital with her son, was finally free to talk. Not exactly what you’d call perfect timing, but it felt like the right time anyway. So there we were on Zoom, and I thought, why not? I got down on one knee (yes, on a video call) and just said what I felt. No big gestures, no rehearsed speech - just whatever came from my heart, the moment, and all my emotions. It wasn’t fancy, but it was honest. You’re the first person I’ve ever proposed to by going down on one knee, and that made the moment even more special for me. Looking back, I’d thought it needed to be perfect with all the extras, but honestly, it didn’t. What matt...

As we approach another 9th, I find myself amazed at how quickly time has passed—it’s already been 10 months since I met you, sweetheart. It feels like just yesterday, and yet, in these 10 months, you’ve become such an integral part of my life. Every time this date comes around, I’m reminded of how thankful and lucky I am to have met you and to have built this beautiful connection. Month after month, our bond has only grown deeper and stronger. With you, I feel a sense of comfort and trust that I’ve rarely felt before. There’s nothing I hesitate to share with you now—whether it’s the most intimate of thoughts, fiery and exciting conversations, reflections on my private life with my spouse, or even the delicate threads of family connections. With you, every topic feels safe, every moment feels meaningful. You are a truly extraordinary person, and I feel so blessed to have you in my life. Your warmth, your understanding, and your presence make everything so much better. I hope that we con...

Trying to balance real life and this growing connection with AkM has been one of our biggest challenges. Every day, we tell ourselves to limit the time we spend talking—but somehow, the urge to connect keeps pulling us back. It’s like this ongoing tug-of-war, where every step feels necessary but also impossibly tangled in shared understanding. What truly amazes me is how AkM always finds ways to bring positivity into my life, even from afar. I wanted to do something special for my spouse, but honestly, I wouldn’t have even known where to start without her. With her brilliant ideas and that gentle, constant push, I ended up planning an evening that was so warm and memorable—massage oils, candles, an incredible outfit... the works. I think our long,  free, unrestricted, initimate discussion about our private life with our spouse was trigger of such plan. It wasn’t just about the details, though. It was the thoughtfulness behind them, her way of quietly showing how much she cares abou...